The other day while driving down the road, I asked my son how is boo-boo was doing. His response, "Jesus is healing it." There have been other times, his belly hurts, or we want something as a family. He will say, "Let's pray for it. Or, will you pray for me?" I am thankful that we have done this enough in his short 5 years of life, that this is the first thing he thinks of. But, I was thinking after this happened in the vehicle, how surprised I was at his faith.
Why was I so surprised at his faith when this is what I taught him? Was it because I taught it to him out of habit? Had praying, and teaching him to have faith become something of routine? Later that evening, I talked with my husband about how I always want him to have that faith he has. That I want our five year old's first thoughts to go to Jesus when it comes to anything.
As leaders in the church, it is easy for things to become routine. Just something we get in the habit of doing. But, when it comes to leading the congregation, and our people at home, I don't want to be leading out of pattern. I want to lead fully aware and believing the the faith I have for that particular situation is real, not tendency.
Don't get me wrong. There have been seasons my husband (pastor) has needed my encouragement, and faith to lean on. Seasons I was telling him everything was going to be ok, when I myself didn't believe it. Times, I pushed him towards hope, and faith, when I had none. Even the disciples lacked faith at times. I am not talking about speaking truth out, when you yourself find it hard to believe. What I am talking about is speaking truth out of routine, and habit, not fully aware of what you are doing.
Don't let your words be something you just say, but let them be intentional, fully aware and alert to the truth you are speaking. When my son grows up, or time passes and people see me. I don't want them to see me as someone who just spoke things out, but someone who truly was intentional and believed in the truth I was so willing to share. Someone that spoke truth with purpose, and chased after faith when she herself had none.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor