Have you ever looked back over the past couple years and had a memory or moment you go to? How great that season was, how simple, and fun, and enjoyable ministry seemed to be then. Life with the pastor at home in that moment or season was exciting. I can remember a particular house we lived in, the tree we would sit under in our yard, the dinner we would cook, the baby we had, the walks we would go on, the ice-cream we would eat, the excitement of church, and newcomers. And think, what a great season that was.
I didn't realize it then, but it was good. Where we were in life was a dream. Then, I look presently and think, when did life get hard? When did ministry become full of mistakes, mess ups, and hard memories? But the more I look back, the more I realize there were still mistakes and mess ups then, just like there are now. The mistakes just didn't seem as big to me then. My mess ups didn't feel like mess ups. I focused more on the beauty, and fun God was giving me all around that the mess ups weren't center focus.
Lately, I have been noticing those moments of beauty. This has been one of the toughest seasons I have been through these past two years. However, the past couple of months I have been purposely living in the beautiful-fun moments. When my family lays on the trampoline under the stars at night time, or when my sons' and I plant herbs in the garden, or when we all dance in the kitchen while cooking dinner. No, I am not purposely creating rememberable moments, just like I didn't in those past seasons. But, I am purposely enjoying, taking a moment, and realizing this is the moment I will look back on. I won't look back on all the hard patches we went through. I will no longer look back on moments thinking, I didn't realize how good it was then. I will look back and realize, I enjoyed that moment, and I realized how good and perfect life and ministry was in that season.
Have you ever heard the saying, "You never know how good you have something until it is gone." I don't want this to be a phrase I live by in my life. There is beauty all around, if we just shift our perspective off of the worries, burdens, and struggles life is throwing at us and look up at the sky. I use to tell me husband all the time, "God painted that sky for me." I truly believed it too, because most people don't ever take a moment to look up and enjoy the beauty all around God is creating them. Stop looking down sister, stop dreaming about the past, and look up. There is beauty in every season as a pastor's wife, DONT MISS IT.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor