It is incredibly easy to complain when leading a church. Complain about people, finances, circumstances, seasons, and so on. I can go on and on about all the complaining I have done in the past. I can remember one year, we didn't have a car, or a place to live. Church finances were little. My marriage was feeling the weight of life, and felt as though it was falling apart. The house we moved into got broken into, and things were stolen. I was pregnant, I ended up breaking my ankle, then two months later broke my other ankle, and elbow. It was just one thing after another. I remember saying to my husband (pastor) "When is life going to give us a break, and get good again?"
My perspective was on everything that I thought was going wrong, rather than on every blessing and everything good in my life. I wasn't praising with my lips, but complaining with them. We have all been there. Life gets wild. Sometimes we close one tough season, to step into another tough season. The blows and arrows keep coming, and we think-- we just can't take another hit. I read a quote this morning that really spoke to me.
"Strength grows in the moments when you think you can't go on, but keep going anyway."
This is so true. I have felt unbelievably weak, and broken in some seasons of my life. Feeling as though I can't take another step. But what I didn't realize was, through the long suffering I was walking through, God was creating in me a steadfast, solid spirit. He was strengthening me, growing me, and flourishing me for the next chapter. Unfortunately, I was too busy complaining to see it. I love this song by Bethel "Ever Be." About how devoted Christ's love is for us. Unwavering and enduring through anything. He is faithful to love us always. We need to let praise EVER be on our lips, no matter what circumstance or season we are walking through. Praise Him through it all, good and bad. He is devoted to us, let's be devoted pastors' wives to Him, free of complaint.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor