I don't think messing up as a pastor's wife excites me as much as growing from my mistakes does. I am so thankful I didn't have a manual, or this thing figured out when I started. Even though I longed to know much, have immeasurable wisdom, and be confident in my role as pastor's wife from the get go. This many years later, thank goodness I didn't know much. Through the good seasons and bad ones, I have grown. More so in the rough seasons, I must admit.
But I think most of us somewhere along in our journey as pastor's wife want to arrive at the point of having this thing figured out. However, thankfully we never really do, do we? Is it so bad, along the way to trip up a few times? Yesterday my four year old was learning how to ride a skateboard. My husband looked at me and said, "what are we going to do when he eventually falls?" Confused by the question, I realized, oh yeah. Our son does have the personality to get frustrated when he messes up and want to quit. But like any parent of the year, you cheer him on when he does it right, and cheer him on when he messes up too. Why? Because we want him to keep going, keep trying, and keep learning.
I think our lives in ministry are a whole lot like that. God calls some of the most imperfect people to love on His church. Well, maybe you are perfect. But this gal, I got a whole lot a mess sometimes to work on. But when I mess up, I believe like any great daddy, God is cheering me on. He is probably whispering, you are doing great, keep going, I am teaching you something through this, grab that skateboard one more time, this run is going to be great.
Skinning our knees hurts. There is pain involved. Leading a church there have been many skinned knees this pastor's wife and pastor have gone through. The other day I got excited about future and church planting, and said I can't wait to learn and grow. No one wants to fall, and mess up. But, I have fallen and messed up so many times that the growth from it is now exciting to me. The hard season doesn't excite me, but what God wants to teach me afterward is so worth any rough season.
We may never arrive at having it all figured out. And personally I don't want to. I want to keep growing through it all. But even though we don't have this pastor's wife thing all figured out, that doesn't mean we can't walk confidently in who we are. Not knowing it all, and the imperfections sometimes is what keeps us humble. So pastor's wife, rejoice in the good, and praise him through the storm. Let His praise be ever on your lips. Walk confidently, and humbly in your role as pastor's wife.
Be thankful for what He is teaching you, even if you are skinning your knees.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor