My husband is currently reading the Circle Maker. He told me a story from it, about how a man planted some trees that take seventy years to fully mature and bear fruit. Another man with him asked, "Are you sure you will live another seventy years to eat its fruit?" The man said, "Perhaps not. However, I am planting these trees for my children and grandchildren." The story goes on to relate the seeds being planted as what our prayers are. That though we may not see the fruit of what we prayed for a while, that eventually like these trees our prayers (seeds) will bear fruit.
As church planters/pastors there have been seasons when our prayers are urgent. We need a solution/answer now, today. Currently my husband and I are in a season of seeds being planted. Seeds I wish would have matured yesterday. Not because I am anxious for the fruit. But because right now this prayer seems like a huge mountain in our eyes, and it doesn't look like it is budging.
No signs it is going to move, just hope. The other day I had a moment of doubt. "How much longer do I hope?" I asked. In't is funny how the bible never mentions praying until you can't anymore, or until all hope and faith are gone. Or, the moment you don't see any signs your seed will bear fruit, give up and work it out yourself. No it doesn't mention anything of sort, but we often live our prayers like this.
Luke 18:1 And he told them a parable to the effect that they ought always to pray and not lose heart.
1 Thessalonians 5:17 Pray without ceasing.
I don't know what your seeds/prayers are. Maybe you are lonely in this role as a pastors' wife and you have been waiting what seems like forever for that confidante. Maybe your financial situation leading this church is weighing down on you. Maybe disunity has wiggled its way in the church. Maybe the enemy is attacking your marriage because you have a huge target on your head. Perhaps you are burnt out from the church. Maybe close friends and people you trusted are leaving the church.
Whatever the mountain is, don't give up. The reason we pray isn't to convince God what He already knows. Sometimes and often our prayers are changing us, we just can't see it. Seeds change. They bud, sprout, grow, then mature into the plant they were created to be. It is a process. If we can understand what prayers are, and what God says about praying, then maybe we will start seeing the fruit before it comes.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor