I can remember growing up only viewing pastors' wives as set apart pretty ladies who sat on a church pew alone watching their husbands' preach. I think even when I went into this church planting thing I only viewed myself as the wife of the pastor. I didn't view myself as anything special, I was just the lucky one along for the ride with a front row seat. I can remember longing for more than that. I wanted to have wisdom far beyond my age to speak to women in the Church. I desired to be more than just the lady who got stared at on a church pew.
I had no idea what that would look like, and with being the young twenty year old I was, speaking to women, being an encourager, or leading anything seemed so far-fetched. People don't want to hear what I have to say, so I thought. Unequipped was how I felt, and I walked around in that defeat for a long time. Girls would ask me to coffee, Jim (pastor) would encourage me to lead a girls' study group, and so on. However, I made every excuse not to. Not because I didn't want to. I longed with every thing in me to be able to be used by God to love on the church. My problem wasn't desire, my problem was that I didn't believe in myself.
For so long I believed the enemy's lies that I was valueless. I was the church pew wife at church and nothing more. Now listen, I am not saying if you sit on the church pew each Sunday and don't serve the church that you are valueless. There is a whole lot of responsibility, encouragement, and love to be had at home to the pastor as a pastor's wife that in itself is ultimately loving the church. Tune me out if the church pew is where your heart is. I am speaking to the women that have a longing in their being to love on, lead, shepherd, and speak into the church with their presence/voice.
Pastors' wives you are irreplaceable. You are invaluable to the kingdom. God chose you to be the pastor's wife and those desires in your heart aren't for nothing. Do not waste time in defeat, and discouragement believing the enemy's lies that you are unequipped and nothing. God has equipped you right where He has called you. Stop waiting for a certain amount of wisdom to be poured down, and the right techniques to be learned before you love on the church. You have everything you need, that is Jesus. Remember the disciples were far from passing any church planting, pastor job interview. Christ used the ordinary and he made them extraordinary.
Believe in yourself. I said, BELIEVE in yourself. You have people who believe in you in the church that are waiting for all that God is going to do through you.
xo a girl who sleep with the pastor