Last night we took our children to the Drive-In. Lucky me, they fell asleep before the second movie which happened to be "Mom's Night Out." What a great movie. It really hit home for me, because I could relate so much to the lead character. If you haven't seen it yet, the lead character loves to have a clean house because an unclean one stresses her out. She worries a lot, and makes up crazy scenarios of what could happen to her kids if she isn't around. She is somewhat on edge, because she is trying to find her identity in who she thinks she is, rather than finding it in who God says she is.
As pastors' wives, I think we often get our identities wrapped up in a role. While a pastor's wife is a title we carry, it isn't the purpose God gave us. We can't find our identity in it. While pastor's wife could be a title we have until the day we die, or just in a season. God never desired our purpose to be pastor's wife. Helping lead and shepherd a church a long side of our husband is the purpose. Loving and giving ourselves for the Bride of Christ is the goal. The title of pastor's wife is just a little tag a long, or add on. It doesn't define us, but we are only defined by the one who created us.
Jesus doesn't look at me and see pastor's wife, mother, or wife who doesn't always do a fantastic job at it. He sees me as Jessica. The one who was worth dying for. The beautiful one He created, and loves, and has a purpose for. He loves me on the good days, and the not so good days. He knows I am far from perfect. He sees me try to be perfect, try to be good, and try to find my identity in titles, and the things I do. But the beauty we so often look over, is Jesus and all of his perfection, beauty, grace, and love and try to give ourselves credit where credit isn't due.
Pastor's wife, stop insulting Jesus' beautiful grace He so beautifully displayed and gave at a cost, because He loves so much an imperfect you and an imperfect me. Finding your identity in everything else, you will always fall short. Stop finding your identity in who you think you are, and find it in who God says you are. Christ gave it all for you, on your good days and bad ones too. He loves you evermore when you fail, yell, and mess up. See you how Jesus sees you, and your life will forever be changed.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor