Some days are better than others. You know the days. The days giving up church ministry, being a pastor's wife, and even marriage seems like the easy way out. If only our marriage was great, then everything we do church related would fall in place beautifully. Or actually, if full-time ministry wasn't stealing my husband away from me, then our marriage would be so much better. Ministry is ruining our marriage. It seems like the only good conversation we have is ministry related. I don't only want a ministry partner, but my husband back, and the love we had when we first fell in love.
Oh boy, have I had this lump or two I have had to swallow over the years of planting. The lumps of self pity, and complaining. I have let my thoughts that aren't so lovely about ministry, and my husband consume my very being and turn this heart into a sad bitter one. We women are so very good at thinking. Before we know it, we are spiraling down a long road of thoughts that aren't true, lovely, honorable, or admirable. We allow our expectations of how we think our marriage, family, and ministry should be take over. When the expectations aren't met, we compare what is, to what isn't and turn into that leaky faucet the bible speaks clearly against.
Pastor's wife, I have been there. Is ministry rough, not thriving, and finances aren't there? Is your marriage tumbling down the slopes at a fast pace? Are your thoughts and expectations ruining your very being and the people around you? Good news, tomorrow is a new day. Lamentations 3:22-23 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
Each new day, we must first wake up and cover our household in prayer. Pray for you spouse, your children, and for yourself. Cover yourself in joy, peace, and thankfulness. Loving your husband doesn't just happen. Loving difficult days in ministry isn't easy. We have to make a choice. The bible says in Philippians 4:8 to fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Notice it says to fix your thoughts. When you "fix" something, that means that something is broken, or there is a default. Fix your thoughts, pastor's wives.
2 Corinthian 10:5 says, we destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ. You must also take your thoughts captive. Captive means to lock them up. Hold your thoughts prisoner, and fix them on Jesus. The enemy loves to bring destruction to your life, your household, and the ministry in which God has given you. Do not allow him the satisfaction of stealing your thoughts from you. Hold them captive, and fix them on whatever is true.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor