A few years ago in ministry, I was in the season of growing and flourishing in who I was as a pastor's wife. I had not yet believed in who I was, and wasn't satisfied spiritually. I longed to be more than I was, and didn't understand in that season that it was a time of learning and growth. I looked down on myself for my age, and desired for God to give me wisdom far beyond it. Unfortunately, because I didn't view my life in seasons yet, or realize I was being refined and shaped and molded into who I was going to be in years to come, I was dissatisfied and that poured out into all areas of my life.
In ministry we are constantly juggling everything. Church, finances, kids, spouse, family, friends, and more. We are giving what we have to offer to each area and often times that may look like our best. Unfortunately, if we were a little more honest with ourselves, it isn't our best. We are in a constant state of, if only I could be older, if only I could look like this and talk like that, if only I was like Beth Moore, if only if only.
In order to juggle our best, we need to be good spiritually, and emotionally with Christ. He says in John 15, a part from me you can do nothing. Christ longs for us to drink and get satisfied from Him, and out of the overflow give our best in each aspect of our life. If we aren't nourished and spiritually fed by Him, the outflow of our lives in those areas are ultimately going to be affected whether we realize it or not. We as pastors' wives have to stop living our lives off if only if only, and start living our life fully in Christ in each season satisfied.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor