I have a sweet friend who has been a mother longer than I have, and I have always adored her family, and her sweet calm spirited children. So much so, that when my husband and I got married we always said we wanted to raise our children like they did because we adore them. Come years later, we had two little toddler boys with active, funny, loud, busy, musical talents. And a lot more crazy than I imagined. I can remember wondering, what did I do differently because my kids don't look calm like their children, like we planned.
After that thought, the Lord spoke so clearly to me. He said, "I gave her those children because they were the perfect kids for her, and she was the perfect mom for them. I gave you your kids, because you are the perfect mom for them, and they are the perfect kids for you." My mind was blown with that idea. To know I didn't have to be another mom, because God gave me my children for me. And the idea that He gave them me, and no other mom, because I was the perfect choice. That was freeing.
Too often we women forget this isn't a competition in all areas of life, including pastor's wife. We get wrapped up in the pressures of being a pastor's wife we know, or being someone we idol like Beth Moore. Somehow we get lost in the idea we feel we have something to prove to make us a better fit as a pastor's wife. Just like God gave me my children and no one else's kids, He has given me the people and the church I am to be a pastor's wife to. He chose me to be a pastor's wife where I am, not at Elevation Church or Passion City Church. The same goes, that God has given the church me. He didn't want the next Beth Moore, he already did that. He also didn't want me to be John Piper's wife to the church I am at. They don't need John Piper's wife, they need me.
Competition is the breeding ground for jealousy. And jealousy is the breeding ground for death. It will invade your heart, and you will lose sight of who you are because you will replace Christ for envy and jealousy. You will no longer be who Christ intended you, and it will hinder everything you come in contact with. We need to set our eyes upon Jesus and remember we are all playing the same orchestra, lifting up one song. Just because Beth Moore is playing a lead instrument like the piano, doesn't mean your tuba isn't just as important.
We have to remember, we are who God created us to be, and we are where God wants us to be. Stop envying others lives, because you don't know the weight and stress it took some of your idols to get where they are today. Their life may look desirable, but their life isn't easy. Take what you have in front of you today and be ALL that God intended you to be.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor