You make me feel ugly. You make me feel inadequate, unequipped, like a failure. You make me feel worthless of a title to be pastor's wife. You make me want to run and hide on Sundays. You make me sad, angry, and bitter. You make my dread my day to day duties. You make me despise Sundays, and other church get togethers. You make me sit out one too many Sundays, and find any excuse not to go. You make finding friends hard.
Insecurity, you are death to my ministry.
Pastors' wives, I am not sure what it is about insecurity, but it loves to creep up in women. It probably has to do with Eve in the garden. But insecurity loves to sneak in and choke out our life and confidence we have in Christ. If you are thinking negative thoughts about yourself, the ministry God has you in, or about things in your life. Chances are, there are insecurities that have rooted themselves in your heart.
Our God is not a God of complaining, uncertainty, confusion, negativity, and death. Our God came to bring life, hope, love, and freedom to our lives to break the bondage of insecurity. Start speaking truth in the areas you are struggling in. Let God breathe life into your soul, so you can be everything He desires you to be.
You are beautiful. You are adequate, equipped, and more than a conqueror. You are worthy to be a pastor's wife. You don't need to run and hide on Sundays but walk in confidence and humility with Christ in you. Be happy, joyful, and full of love. Do not worry about tomorrow. Look forward to Sundays, the day people come together to lift Jesus high. Stop sitting out on Sundays, and find more reasons why you should go. Find friends, and people to love on.
Security in Christ, you are life to my ministry.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor