"I don't want to be a pastor's wife anymore!" We've all said it. There have been seasons in church planting that haven't been all that pretty. Yes, it is an honor to be called to this position and there have been beautiful, awesome days where I have seen fruit from this calling. However, there have been days and seasons I feel like I am breaking. Days where I want to give up ministry life, because real world life seems easier and doable and a lot less personal.
I can tell you now in this season of rest we are called to for six months to a year, real world life isn't what we think we desire when ministry gets tough. Rest is what we desire, but real life is not. When the Lord has designed you and your husband to be pastors, and live lives in full time ministry living life in the real world is uncomfortable. We feel out of place, and out of sorts.
I imagine that is how Jesus felt when he lived here on earth. Knowing this wasn't His home, and living on earth and being of flesh for a short time instead of sitting at the right hand of God was uncomfortable for Him. But sometimes God calls us to uncomfortable, to create in us who He wants us to be for when he calls us next.
When ministry gets tough, and you feel like you are breaking then you are probably to the point you need to rest. Take a few days, or a week off to spend time rejuvenating and spending time with Jesus and your family without ministry consuming you. Don't give up on the calling and position you were given. We all need rest and to take time to recoup. Don't desire to give up the call for real life world, that is exactly what the devil wants you to think so he can knock you out of the race. He knows you need rest, because it is in seasons of rest that God reshapes, reworks, and grows our hearts in new ways. Like in nascar when the car has to take a quick pitstop. It doesn't stop to give up, it stops because the driver knows it is needed so it can refuel, change a tire, and become all it can be to finish the race.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor