Yesterday while reminiscing with friends about where our lives are now, and who would of ever thought back in college that we would be where we are now, a thought came to mind. My husband said to our sweet friend, "I wish I could of spoke into your life then. I would have told you, you're going to be married, and have a beautiful son named Sawyer one day." Too which I said, "if she would have known that, then she may have done things differently. And if she had done things differently, then she wouldn't be who she is today."
Some of us have walked through some pretty tough seasons in our lives. Seasons we hope to never walk through again, seasons we honestly wish we would have never walked through, and seasons we don't know why we walked through. I have walked through much in my short life, and recently I had the thought why did I walk through that? Was there glory in what I just walked through? What was the point of it?
In the early days of church planting I wasn't exactly the pastor's wife I am now. I was a dedicated introvert, was raised into a habit of always feeling attacked by the people around me, and very timid towards people. I can't remember saying "yes" to one female who asked to meet with me for coffee. I know, some pastor's wife, huh? I wasn't ready, but God was ready. God appointed me Pastor's wife, but I hadn't yet accepted that appointing in my life. A week ago, I wondered what was the point in that season, if I wasn't ready yet? But I have come to realize, even though I wasn't ready, God was. He was shaping me and molding me to be who I am today.
God used my inability, to grow me. If I would have never been unable, then he would have never made me able. Sometimes we have to walk through seasons, and although they may seems pointless and fruitless to us, they have value and point to Jesus.
Romans 8:28 And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.
I have walked through pain, and sorrow in the past. Where everything seems to unravel, but God has used my pain, and shaped me for my future. I would have never been who I am today without walking through every season in which I walked through.
Galatians 6:9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
Don't give up no matter what comes your way. Endure it. 1 Corinthians says, to be steadfast, immovable. God has purpose for you in everything. Stop wishing things in your past away, because through your past God has created you who you are, and gives purpose to it.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor