Think of the most beautiful person you know. Now think of someone with all the best traits that you wish you had. Think of someone you envy. Now take what is best about those three people and make them one person. Pretty awesome person, huh? If only we could be more like them.
In my life, I often find myself striving for super mom, wife, and pastor's wife. I can do it all, be it all, and perfect it all. I fool myself and fool others with the facade of super woman. In keeping up my claimed title, I run myself crazy trying to hold that title day after day, month after month, year after year. I set the bar high for myself, and leave little room for grace.
You see in our lives, we know we have flaws, imperfections, screw ups, and sinful natures. But we often believe, if everyone else sees us as perfect creatures then maybe it will make us start believing it and we won't think less of ourselves anymore. We hinder ourselves from healing from life. We sweep our junk under our rugs, and invite our neighbors in. We also hinder our neighbors too, because they see the mask of perfection, and strive to be it too rather than seeing a human that makes mistakes but is covered by Jesus' grace.
The truth is, if we were perfect then we wouldn't need Jesus. I need Jesus. I am far less than perfect. We have got to stop holding people on pedestals and striving for perfection. Stop hindering yourself and others from seeing the imperfections and sin in your life, and how the power of Jesus can heal it and wash it away. Allow people to see what is true.
I am not a super mom. I can get overwhelmed by toddlers running and screaming. My house is no where near cleaned. It may be straitened up but I need some serious deep cleaning in here. I am not always the mom or wife I know God has called me to be. Sometimes I stink at the pastor's wife role. I can tell you many stories in the past of what I could have done differently. But I can't sweep my junk under the rug anymore. I have messed up, and I will probably mess up in the future. But I from this day on, am going to strive not to sweep things under the rug and hold a title thats unattainable. I am going to hold grace high, and let God's glory shine on imperfection.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor