Ever know anyone who can't keep a secret? They just share everything about everything? Even those people are great secret keepers. All of us are. Think about it. We keep the best secrets about who we are and where we have been to ourselves. We are full of identity that we have locked away inside.
If only someone knew it all, how I could have so much freedom in my life. Someone to love me and all of my hidden secrets too. Someone does know me. Someone knows all of my past secrets, and future secrets. His name is Jesus.
John 13:38 Then Jesus answered, “Will you really lay down your life for me? Very truly I tell you, before the rooster crows, you will disown me three times!
Jesus told Peter, I know your secret. Wow. Jesus knew Peter's secret before his secret. The very same Peter who had faith one second and fear the next walking on water. Like Peter we have secrets. And like Peter, we don't always tell Jesus our secrets.
John 21:15-17 When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?”
“Yes, Lord,” he said, “you know that I love you.”
Jesus said, “Feed my lambs.”
Again Jesus said, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”
He answered, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.”
Jesus said, “Take care of my sheep.” The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, “Do you love me?” He said, “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you.”
Jesus knew Peter loved him. However, he was asking Peter so Peter would say what was on the inside. Like Peter, I have a lot of stuff on the inside Jesus wants me to stop trying to hide, and just tell him. He knows everything about me.
Often times when I pray I find myself never taking the time for Jesus to dig deep into those places. For fear of having to speak them out loud to him, and rekindling the hurt I hold deep within myself. I secretly think I only know my secrets, and if Jesus finds one of them, I will feel like a screw up or failure, and definitely unloved.
Jesus knew every bit of Peter. Yet Jesus loved him still. Jesus told Peter in Matthew 16:18 that he is the rock that he will build his church on. He asked people many questions in the bible that he already knew he answers to. Like the good samaritan in Matthew.
Matthew 16:17-18 He told her, “Go, call your husband and come back.” “I have no husband,” she replied. Jesus said to her, “You are right when you say you have no husband. The fact is, you have had five husbands, and the man you now have is not your husband. What you have just said is quite true.”
Like Peter, and the samaritan, Jesus isn't asking me the question because he doesn't know me. Jesus knows me. He knows every bit of me. He wants to unlock freedom in my life. He wants me to answer the question for myself. He wants me to finally release everything that I have been holding onto, and drink from His cup. He wants me to fully grasp his love for me. How can I feel his love, if I can't even be honest with myself or him?
We can't fully grasp Jesus' love for us until we release everything, and see how much more he loves us flaws and all.
What question is Jesus asking you today?
How are you doing?
What is that hurt your clinging to?
How are you doing with being a mom?
How is your bitter heart?
Are you angry?
What did that man do to you?
What did your parents say/do to you that hurt you so much?
Were you bullied?
Why don't you think you are beautiful?
Why are you stuffing your feelings in food?
Did you yell at your children today?
What are your insecurities?
What are you so afraid of?
Do you have infidelity in your past or present?
Do you know how much I love you, your secrets, and every single bit of you?
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor