Some of us are born planners. Make that, most women are. I am a happy medium between a planner and not so much. When it comes to suddenly jumping in the car and going to the zoo, or packing up and heading to snow because I just saw on the news there is a snow storm in Boone, NC. This is me. Luckily, I married a man who is equally as spontaneous. We don't need plans made. You call us a minute before a gathering and we are there. However, when it comes to stepping out of the boat onto waters, we all of a sudden need a plan.
Trusting, and having faith to step out when God calls us, for some reason we need set plans to know everything is going to be ok. We need a bird to fly over, or a couple rain drops, maybe even a special song. Just a few signs to convince us this isn't just a bad burrito of an idea. Then, after the sign. We need plans set in place for us to know this is what we should do. Plans that give us a little security knowing if we fall or fail at least our plans will hold us together.
Matthew 14:24-31 Meanwhile, the boat was far out to sea when the wind came up against them and they were battered by the waves. At about four o’clock in the morning, Jesus came toward them walking on the water. They were scared out of their wits. “A ghost!” they said, crying out in terror. But Jesus was quick to comfort them. “Courage, it’s me. Don’t be afraid.” Peter, suddenly bold, said, “Master, if it’s really you, call me to come to you on the water.” He said, “Come ahead." Jumping out of the boat, Peter walked on the water to Jesus. But when he looked down at the waves churning beneath his feet, he lost his nerve and started to sink. He cried, “Master, save me!” Jesus didn’t hesitate. He reached down and grabbed his hand. Then he said, “Faint-heart, what got into you?”
Peter was a little spontaneous. Notice, he still needed his sign. He said, "if it is really you, then call me to come to you on water." Peter immediately jumped out. Unfortunately, Peter after walking on the water started thinking about how he forgot his plan b. Or maybe he did have a plan b, and he suddenly realized plan b wasn't going to save him so he began to get afraid.
I think when Jesus calls us, a lot of times He doesn't give us the full blueprint. He doesn't always tell us how the story will go, or end. Probably if He did, then we might reconsider going, or feeling called. I also don't think He desires for us to make a lot of plans. Our plans leave little room for Him. Peter suddenly took his eyes off of Jesus and onto the water and his plans and started sinking. When you walk on water, or walk in your calling as a pastor's wife there is no room for your plans, but only His. We need to keep our eyes on Jesus. We have to stop looking for security in signs, and plans that will hold us together.
God calls us before the rain. Noah built his boat before a cloud, or a rain drop. Elisha was called years before He walked fully in his calling. We can't live off of signs and plans, but off of Jesus alone. If Jesus had told the disciples he would be crucified when He first asked them to come with Him, they may have reconsidered their teacher.
The Bible says the spirit of God is like the wind. We need to be sailboats without a plan in the middle of the ocean, and let the spirit of God (wind) catch our sails and blow us in the direction He wants us. Get out of your paddle boat, put your paddles down. Burn your blueprints. Stop relying on all the stars to align, and GO.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor