As a pastor's wife, or even a follower of Christ in general, I sometimes find it hard to read my bible. My days can be long with being a mommy to three toddlers, a homemaker, and wife. There's no telling what each day will bring me. However, almost everyday I find myself during the kids nap time/quiet time just relaxing by reading an article, social media, or sleeping myself.
I can remember four years ago hitting a season like this. I was taking a walk with our worship pastor's wife at our church. We were both new mommies at the time, and we were discussing how hard it had become to read the word since becoming mothers. I went on to tell her how I have the desire to read, but I just need the desire to desire to read. I wanted to read my bible, I just didn't read my bible.
Since hitting this season again, I felt like the Lord told me I didn't need the desire to read it, I just needed the faithfulness in obedience to read His word. If you ever ask someone who just started exercising if they enjoy it, they probably will say no. With most people, it is probably a fight to get to the gym, however after they leave they feel amazing. Amazing they accomplished it, and they feel amazing because exercising is good for their body. The bible can be a bit like exercising.
The enemy knows how to distract us, and keep us from desiring to read our word. However, after we read our word we are thankful we did. God uses the scriptures to speak to us, grow us, and teach us. Most of us are running on fumes during the day. I can always tell when I haven't been on my knees in front of Jesus, and digging into His word enough. I am more irritable with my kids, my husband can annoy me, my body isn't satisfied, I just have a sense of discontent.
Pastors' wives, your family doesn't need your fumes, and neither does the church. God has placed you in this position, in this season for a reason. Sometimes you won't always have the desire. But desire is not what will sustain us, desires can shift and change. Obedience and faithfulness to do something regardless if we desire or feel like it, is what will sustain us.
Read your word.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor