Ignoring my issues sometimes feels so much easier than facing them. Facing them is hard, because its admitting I have issues in the first place, and its revealing a piece of me I don't want Jesus to see. Truth is, He already sees it and I know that. Maybe, I just don't want to talk about it with him. I rather throw a rug over it, and pretend neither of us see it.
What will happen if He does see it? Will He point it out, make me feel quilty, make me regret even showing him? This past year, our life group was listening to a video for a particular chapter in a study we were doing. The guy was talking about how he could NOT find the butter he was looking for in the fridge. He searched high and low. He knew his wife would know, because she knows where everything is in the fridge. Finally, he gave in and yelled to the other room asking where it was. In she came, went strait to the second shelf, immediately moved the ketchup and there sat the butter.
I couldn't help but wonder. What if our issues are the ketchup. What if like his wife, God wasn't coming to point out the ketchup to us. He came to reveal them as the distraction they really are from who we really are. What if He was coming to move the ketchup and say, "Look, here is the butter."
I don't know what your ketchup is. Maybe its anger. Maybe its doubt in your worth, maybe its fear, maybe its your past, Maybe the ketchup is jealousy. Whatever it may be, I don't think our loving Savior's purpose is to make us feel guilty, yucky, and ugly for having it. I think His desire is to move it, shift it from our focus and tell us what's behind it.
Behind anger, you are lovely
Behind doubt, you are strong & courageous
Behind fear, you are bold.
Behind bitterness, you are forgiving.
Behind deceit, you are transparent.
Behind insecurity, you are confident.
Behind pride, you are humble.
Behind_________, you are __________.
xo a girl who sleeps with the pastor